Procrastination will get you no where.

So I started this blog with the intention of updating it regularly. I had a blog a few years ago with the same intention. I posted 3 entries and called it quits. When I recently started this blog, I made a deal with myself that I wasn't going to be a quitter. There are many things in my life that I start and never finish. Or I get myself involved in some kind of hobby, try to make it be something that I can do for the rest of my life, but then I get bored out of my mind and have to move on to something else. My storage room in my apartment is home to many of these "hobbies". One can go back there and find many large storage bids each filled materials including anything to paint or draw with, jewelry making supplies, feathers to make hair accessories, a kit to make belt buckles in which I have been using my boyfriends photography for, screen printing supplies which includes a rather heavy screen printing press. You can check them all out here, however all you will find is 1 screen printed hoodie because, again....I have lost interest. Sure my friends and family love my art and encourage me to keep it up, but I'm bored. But it seems as though I could start an after school arts and crafts program for the local school children.

The rest of the apartment is littered with books, turntables for becoming the next hot girl DJ, various surfboards for any and all types of waves, and photography equipment. The books, a few records, 1 surfboard and 1 camera are mine, the rest are my boyfriend's. He's part of my problem, having a list of hobbies and interests that stretches down the block.

I am the type of person that wants to try everything, but I also want to be instantly good at everything. So herein lies my dilemma. Even typing this post I kept starting and stopping...seriously, it's Tuesday morning, I started this post on Monday morning.

This past weekend I was with some friends and family. One of my friends just passed her boards to become a certified family and marriage therapist. This was a HUGE accomplishment for her because she has worked for 9 long hard years of schooling and 3000 apprenticing hours for little to no pay. Her goal all along was to start her own practice and now she is on the road to making that happen. I think she is amazing because again, I ask myself the question...."why can't you just find something you love and stick with it?"

That was my friend. Now my cousin on the other hand is kind of just like me. She has a job she loves and will probably stick with for the rest of her working years. She is very disciplined in her work. But her personal life is where the ball is often dropped. She has many incomplete tasks lying in piles around her house. Books never finished or never even started, organization of important papers and junk mail left for weeks, and just taking any free time for herself to relax and unwind is usually interrupted by some thing or someone else. She even went so far as to buy a book to help her "get things done" and she never finished reading it. Sound familiar? I guess it runs in my family.

The one thing I do have that my cousin doesn't is the *will* to organize and take time for myself whether that is reading or doing yoga. And this all comes back to the fact that I am unemployed and she is fully employed. Having A LOT of free time on my hands I am able to explore my options. This is something that is positive about being unemployed. And these days I need to get my positivity where I can. I am trying out new things in my search to please my boredom. I am also hoping I find something that I love and that I can somehow get paid for it.

So whether it stems from family or is fed by my boyfriend, I have issues. I really want to be able to wrap my mind around the concept of sticking with something. But what and when will it be? How many more things can I explore? How much more money will I spend to get myself there? And does anyone have any new ideas or suggestions for me?

And the quest continues.................